I know I’ve been MIA for way too long, but let me explain.
2017 wasn’t “busy” in terms of having a full social schedule, but being pregnant for the first half of the year made me a total couch potato. The first trimester started at the end of 2016 and trickled into 2017. This was my first pregnancy and I don’t remember feeling as lethargic and exhausted in my life as I did then (actually, when I volunteered for the Canadian Cancer Society’s Relay for Life and didn’t sleep for over 24 hours then having to catch a plane for my vacation over seas, was the only other time prior to becoming a new Mother), and when I finally got my energy back in the second trimester, I was trying to play catch up at the gym – keeping myself physically healthy during my pregnancy and in preparation for Evan’s arrival.
There was a whole ton I wanted to blog about and share with you, but experiencing pregnancy for the first time was a real kick in the butt and a serious reality check. I always thought I would be able to have everything balanced, organized, and running like clock work as I am so proudly able to do – it is part of who I am…My crazy organizational and plan-ahead skills…Which all went to poo with my pregnancy.
I decided several years ago that I wasn’t going to force myself to do things if I just wasn’t feeling it. Doing that stressed me out and made me antsy. I didn’t need to feel like that during my pregnancy. I wanted to be as calm and cool as possible (when my hormones weren’t raging). From being tired and exhausted to developing pregnancy brain (it is real, believe me. I tired to fight it.) which then turns into mommy brain once your little one arrives. You can’t get away from it. But I’ll touch more on that in a future blog post.
I still have so much I want to share about my pregnancy and on being a first time mom. Forgive me as I now play catch up on Flour + Paper, and I may seem to be all over the place as I travel backwards with my life events and make my way back into blog land.
To give you a quick rundown, aside from sharing my pregnancy experiences, I have yet to share all the tips I came across while planning our wedding in the fall of 2016, and not to mention Tom and mines latest adventures in being new parents and new home owners in a new city – there is SO MUCH to share! I don’t even remember Christmas since it flew by so quickly. I think it took a back seat to us moving and settling into our new home.
I never even got around to thinking about New Year resolutions for 2018, but what I have decided (over and over again since thinking that getting my balance back seemed like it was never going to happen, up until recently) is to follow a handful of key things that really made a difference in how I lived my daily life a few years ago, when I was stuck in a rut:
GO WITH THE FLOW
This was my dad’s advice to me back in 2011 when I was trying to force things in my life. Whether it be relationships, jobs, chores, hobbies, etc. So, I started to just let things be. If something didn’t click with me, I left it alone and let it be. Forcing it never ended well or left me feeling great. I took more of an “If it does, it does. If it doesn’t, then it doesn’t” approach to just about everything. I accepted the good and the not so good potential of my situations. That way I wasn’t left feeling let down by expecting anything from anything or anyone.
My sister called me out on this when I was feeling super down on life in 2013. I don’t remember why she said it exactly and what we were talking about, but I remember my outlook changing almost immediately and I started to look for the tiniest bright side or good things that happened throughout my day. By doing this, so many awesome things started to enter my life, and I started to take notice of all the amazingness already filling my life.
In 2011 I started reading The Celestine Prophecy series of books. I had bought them a few years before that based on a recommendation from one of my close friends. The first book in the series is the original and the best of the four. The Celestine Prophecy takes the reader through nine insights, one of them being “Meaningful Coincidences.” I won’t go into detail, but to sum it up, pay attention to situations or messages you experience or hear multiple times. They usually take place when you are in need of an answer to something and they keep occurring until you take notice and act on them. It’s one of the reason’s we are sleep training Evan right now and why I’ve been able to spend time writing this blog post the past couple of days.
As Tom and I work our way through the adventures in parenting, I’m slowly finding a balance, amongst other personal goals, and so you can look forward to more posts (trickling in) from Flour + Paper from here on out. I can’t promise they will be regular, but they will happen bit by bit.